Why Some Filmmakers Are Broke, Lonely, & Beaten Down [And How to Change It]

Why Some Filmmakers Are Broke, Lonely, & Beaten Down [And How to Change It]

Why Some Filmmakers Are Broke, Lonely, & Beaten Down [And How to Change It]

Paulina Lagudi
Paulina Lagudi
6 years ago

I entered 2019 completely broke. I live for free in a guest house with my fiancé, so my expenses equated to my insurance and groceries. I couldn’t afford them the following month. That’s how broke I was. I never thought I’d be that person. Why was I broke? it wasn't long before I realized my lack of cash was anchored in the false argument of ART VS. COMMERCE.

Why Some Filmmakers Are Broke Lonely  Beaten Down And How to Change It

How did I get in this position?

I had a movie that was premiering on SHOWTIME in two weeks, DVDs were in Walmart, eight projects produced and released the previous year, and multiple meetings with production companies and producers.

What happened?

I was beaten down and lost. I no longer had any money left to make my own work and practice my craft. After crying for an hour and unable to sleep, I turned to my fiancé in bed and said, “Babe, it’s time.” We got jobs. We got regular, menial, cash jobs. And you know what? It changed everything.

The minute we had cash coming in, I started reading books on money management, cash flow, investing, and saving. All of a sudden our zero savings account doubled every month. We were conscious of our income and expenses and cut all the crap we were spending money on that was getting in the way of us reaching our financial goals.

Every month we worked harder and, of course, more opportunities presented themselves because that’s just how the Universe works. At the rate we were saving, we could fund our own micro-budget feature film and still have money left over in our savings. Talk about empowerment.

Some of you may be wondering why I’m babbling on about personal finances in a blog tailored to filmmakers. Well, as I speak with my filmmaker friends and other filmmakers on social media, I find the topic of personal finances to be very taboo. No one wants to admit how broke they really are. Not only that, they have no idea about proper money management practices.

Everyone wants to be further along than they are, but often feel stuck because they don’t have the means to take themselves to the next level.

You want to know the best way to take your career to the next level?
Get really good at what you do and put it out there.

Want to know how to get really good at what you do?
Practice.

It takes money to practice our craft in this industry. Not always a lot of money, but some. So let’s get educated on how we can get more money-energy to invest in ourselves.

1) Know Your Cash Flow

Why Some Filmmakers Are Broke Lonely  Beaten Down And How to Change It

Meet yourself where you are.

Pull up a blank spreadsheet and your bank statement. Mark one side of your spreadsheet as EXPENSES and the other side INCOME. Write out all of your expenses for the month and categorize them. Then, input your income for the month. If your income is greater than your expenses then you’re in POSITIVE CASHFLOW. The excess can go into your savings.

If your expenses outweigh your income then you’re in NEGATIVE CASHFLOW. You’ll want to decrease your expenses, track them, and find a way to increase your income.

2) Increase Your Income

Own your side hustle.

Now here’s where people go wrong with their side hustles: They don’t have specific goals. I’m not talking about having the goal of: "I’m going to quit this job when I book this role or book this gig." Nope. I’m talking about having very specific financial goals. Get serious about your side hustle.

For instance, you need $2000 extra by the end of the month to shoot the music video for your super talented musician friend. You drive for Lyft. In the past, you’ve been coasting through driving a little here and there to pick up some extra cash. Now with your very specific goal, you clock in 8 hours of driving a day 6 days a week and rack in a surplus of $2K after expenses at the end of the month to put towards your shoot. Imagine being able to do that every month.

It doesn’t matter if you’re waiting tables, driving for Uber, building websites for people, or stacking groceries at your local market. You want freedom in your life and your work? You need money coming in consistently.

3) Live Below Your Means

No more FOMO (Fear of missing out).

We’ve heard this before, but we have no idea how far above our means we’re living until we track it. I thought I was the most frugal person in the world until I saw that I spent $1200 on restaurants, bars, and food in one month. Oh yes. Every dinner meeting, catch up with friends, collaborative get together, party, etc. all left me with no money and no work.

Networking is key, yes. However, be smart and efficient about it.

When time is money and money is tight, it’s important to get focused. Meet friends for free, meet collaborators for coffee. We hang out with friends, but not as often as we used to. This is a part of getting focused. We put a little money aside each month from extra cash we get in tips for hanging out with friends, but mostly we try to find ways to hang out with people for free. Hikes, having people over, the beach, get creative. However, at the end of the day, you’re going to have to make some sacrifices when it comes to your social life. Not every party is a networking event. If you’re out partying (or at home watching Netflix) instead of working, then your goals will suffer.

Collaborator meetings are a business expense, so that we spend a little money on. Those are also planned out with specific objectives we want to cover in the meeting so we aren’t just chatting and not getting anything out of the time together.

4) Understanding Sales, Cashflow, & Assets

Why Some Filmmakers Are Broke Lonely  Beaten Down And How to Change It

When I started getting serious about my personal cashflow, I became much more aware of cashflow inefficiencies in film distribution. My feature film, Mail Order Monster, had its domestic release in 2018, and I’ve been heavily involved (as much as I can be with a distributor) in the distribution process. It is through this experience that I noticed how and why many filmmakers feel beaten down and poor even after making a movie.

Because I was that person.

Even after the film made some decent international sales, got on SHOWTIME, and in Walmart stores as well as multiple streaming platforms, I was baffled at the negative cashflow of the film. I didn’t go into producing the movie with bright, naive expectations and no education. I did all the research, had consults, the whole 9 yards. I really did my due diligence. But NOTHING beats experience.

I noticed something that no one brings up when it comes to film sales…most distribution companies don’t know sales and the system is not set up for you to be cash positive. Yes, there are plenty of exceptions in the independent film space, but the majority of cases do not end up cash positive or breaking even. Why is this? We (or the investor) put up 100% of the risk and the distributor controls 100% of the revenue with little to no risk since they recoup their minimal expenses first.

Distribution companies do not sell your movie the way a startup company sells a product. They do not go out there and hustle your film and knock on doors. They manage their risk of films in their slate and leverage them against each other to make sure their business is cash positive at the end of the day. This is not meant to be a depressing reality. This is just the reality and when you can start looking at everything from a cashflow lens, you are able to make MUCH better decisions.

At the end of the day, YOU are the one who has the asset - the film. However, that film is only an asset (something that produces cash flow and increases in value over time) if you position it correctly. So, here’s what you can do:

5) Cast for the Future

One of the best things we did in Mail Order Monster was cast Madison Horcher as the lead. Everyone talks about how great she is. Having a super talented, hardworking, and kind lead child actor with a promising career in front of her only helps our film increase in value in the future as her career grows.

I don’t think name actors are always entirely worth it. They rarely are worth their name and unless they commit in writing to doing in-depth specific marketing for your film, they aren’t worth the money. Invest in future talent and keep your budget low.

6) Invest in Your Sales Relationships

I was able to lock down the Australian distribution of Mail Order Monster on my own without my sales agent. This proves you don’t need them if you have the relationships yourself. This doesn’t mean forget traditional distribution and do it all yourself. However, sales is relationships. My father is in sales and he always said, “I don’t make sales. I make friends.”

The more involved I got in the distribution process, the more I realized how removed most distributors are today. They don’t make meaningful relationships or friends. They just depend on aggregators and keeping their expenses low.

Create a savings account for going to film markets, conferences, consults and meetings with sales people and producers. Do your research and bring meaningful questions that will allow you to make meaningful relationships so you provide just as much value to them as they provide to you.

7) Keep Grinding and Be Patient

Why Some Filmmakers Are Broke Lonely  Beaten Down And How to Change It

I have a fundamental issue with how distributors utilize release windows. They rely on so many stars aligning outside of your control and are rarely in line with what will best position the film.

My film suffered from this, but instead of doing what most filmmakers do, which is dropping it as the distributors do, I keep pushing. I keep marketing, I keep reaching out to collaborators, and the film keeps thriving. It is a slow grind, but it keeps moving. The more I keep moving and putting energy into it, the more energy it gives back.

For instance, Mail Order Monster now has a relationship with the Girl Scouts of Southern Nevada based on a cold email and phone call sent to an organization that resonates with the film’s core audience. They’re setting up a screening for their girls and their mothers in the coming months.

As I grow as a filmmaker and become more of an asset to other productions, so does my previous work. That’s what makes films a different kind of investment. It can be a short term cashflow investment or a long term investment depending on the market type, the quality of the film, and how you positioned it.

Movies don’t fail.
Filmmakers just quit.

Most of our money problems stem around a false battle of ART vs. COMMERCE. This automatically puts us against money. It makes money evil and scarce, but at the same time something we need…I hope this dysfunctional thinking is clear here.

I’m here to let you guys in on a little secret. Art IS commerce. This entire industry is proof of that. The fact that a script or book can have an intellectual property value sold for thousands if not millions of dollars is proof of that. This is not an argument of art vs. commerce. This is an argument of good investments vs. bad investments. This is an argument of financial intelligence in our industry vs. financial ignorance.

Many people in this industry don’t have jobs (**cough** middlemen distributors **cough**) if you’re financially “woke” because then they cannot manipulate you into giving them your assets for nothing.

Empowerment is knowledge.
Let’s get educated and get rich.

Why Some Filmmakers Are Broke Lonely  Beaten Down And How to Change It

About Paulina Lagudi: After graduating Chapman University, Paulina moved to Los Angeles to pursue her filmmaking endeavors. Aware of the extremely small percentage of female filmmakers working in Hollywood, Paulina decided this was the perfect opportunity to create her own films as well as launch her production company Jax Productions, LLC, named after her first rescue dog, Jax.

Since launching in June 2015, Paulina has written and produced short films, multiple commercials and online branded content. She also wrote, produced, and directed the feature film MAIL ORDER MONSTER that was released worldwide and is on SHOWTIME as well as DVD's in Walmart.

She has also been hired by a major production company to write a true story family feature film set to release in 2021.

She has since changed her company from JAX PRODUCTIONS to SAY LITTLE PRODUCTIONS while also launching her course THE PRODUCER BOOTCAMP that takes filmmakers with only a script in their hands to go on and make their first feature film.

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Paulina Lagudi

Paulina Lagudi

Director, Producer, Screenwriter

After graduating Chapman University, Paulina moved to Los Angeles to pursue her filmmaking endeavors. Aware of the extremely small percentage of female filmmakers working in Hollywood, Paulina decided this was the perfect opportunity to create her own films as well as launch her production company J...

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13 Comments on Paulina's Article

Mackenzie Kristjon
Music Composer, Actor, Film/Theatre Journalist
I'm definitely looking forward to fame and fortune. When we get really rich, we'll get diamond-encrusted airplanes. We'll make Trump look like chump change. I think I will call mine Mac Force One. Great post! Keep pushing!!
6 years ago
Mackenzie Kristjon
Music Composer, Actor, Film/Theatre Journalist
I like the idea of you being able to vote for these poor animals who can't get it together to vote for themselves. #AnimalSuffrage #ProxyVotes
6 years ago
Margot Lasher
Playwright
wonderful idea.  I will work to give all animals the vote.  since many of them won't want to go to the polls, I will vote for them.  
6 years ago
Sunny King
Director, Screenwriter, Producer
Great Post Paulina!! I had my own wake up call too two years ago. But you do have some gems here that ill be putting into practice. Thanks for sharing. Appreciate it. And keep hustling to more success!! Onwards and Upwards!!
6 years ago
Rome Saranto
Assistant Director, Cinematographer, Director, Producer
Great post and great advice. I really like the trailer for Mail Order Monster as well, will definitely check it out.
6 years ago
Paulina Lagudi
Director, Producer, Screenwriter
Thank you Rome!
6 years ago
That is so awesome for you.  I love people like you  - and don't get mad, Paulina's fiancee.  I'm a peaceful guy and don't want to end up buried in the desert for a misunderstanding, and solely mean it in an artistic and business sense!  I was just talking to a couple content creators on a lot of what you wrote about money, marketing, choices and strategies.   I'm a guy who spent his life savings twice on failed creative endeavors, and am planning to do it again in the near future - and hopefully without the "failed" part this time.  Heh-heh. We both know the difficulties of getting a project to profitability, and in a way that can not only bring back returns reasonably quickly, but also in a way that will garner some additional benefits - like paying gigs from elsewhere, or investment capital from others. I hold indie filmmakers in the highest regard, and have posted that many times here.  Some/most Indie filmmakers don't have the benefit and luxury of long-term financial structures like the studios or even some indie production companies have, where film making has a continual cycle, and where they don't have to wait for enough revenue from the last film to be realized before they can make their next film.  They have capital funds and long-term spending strategies, and they can proceed accordingly based on their fund (and tax) situations.  So I really hold indie filmmakers in the highest regard - and not just because of their spirit and love for cinema, but because of the realities they face, and how they are brave enough to face it, and scrape, scrap and hustle, and live that way 24/7/365. I love Mail Order Monster - I had previously recorded it on Showtime.  And you're right - Madison Horcher is a great actress who we are going to be seeing a lot more of, no doubt.   And I have always been a Charisma Carpenter fan too.  That was a great choice and great coup for you to choose both and get both.  And you are a great writer/actor/director/filmmaker with great POV, pacing, and aesthetic senses.  Extra kudos for all of that. I love to support the efforts of Stage32 members, and after reading your blog, I am going to order the DVD for Mail Order Monster through Wal-Mart, too.  I hope you get at least 30% of that.    And yes, that was also a great moment for you, in the realization about money, and how you ultimately reacted.  Fight 1, Flight 0.  Way to go on that, too - and maybe later on in life, you may find that moment to have been one of the most important in your life. Best wishes to you and your loved ones, and best fortunes to you in your continued creative endeavors, Paulina! 
6 years ago
Paulina Lagudi
Director, Producer, Screenwriter
Thank you Bill!! Haha you won't end up buried in the desert. Best wishes to you, too. 
6 years ago
Emily Schooley
Actor, Director, Voice Actor, Producer, Screenwriter
Sorry, but this article reeks of privilege, and more advertising for your films and work than actual advice. "I live for free in a guest house with my fiancé"...  "I thought I was the most frugal person in the world until I saw that I spent $1200 on restaurants, bars, and food" ... "At the rate we were saving, we could fund our own micro-budget feature film and still have money left over in our savings." ... It sounds more like your trust fund ran out than someone who *actually* has been beaten down by life.
6 years ago
Korey Pollard
Assistant Director, Filmmaker, Producer
Paulina this is brilliant! I needed this today. I am thirty years into making a living on other people’s projects and delivering for huge networks and studios but am unfulfilled creatively. Thank you for pin pointing the creative goal setting process. Unbelievable that I can deliver for others but never thought about this for me. Love to meet you and your finance.
6 years ago
Bill Brock
Screenwriter, Director, Producer, Actor
Great article, Paulina! Lots of practical advice here. Best of luck in your future endeavors. Keep moving the ball forward. I believe in YOU!  :)
6 years ago
Korey Pollard
Assistant Director, Filmmaker, Producer
Now it's time for deliberate choices and a plan. Looking forward to connecting. 
6 years ago
Annika de Groot
Screenwriter, Filmmaker, Actor, Director
Great post! You've answered some of the questions I'd been ruminating on. 
6 years ago
Joseph Redd
Actor, Producer
This post is so insightful! The biggest takeaway for me is Paulina’s advice to cast for the future. That is the best application of “delayed gratification” I’ve ever seen! It forces us to create content by the numbers for the long term. Thanks for the tough love Paulina!
6 years ago
Paulina Lagudi
Director, Producer, Screenwriter
Anytime, Joe. Thank you for reading. 
6 years ago
Jackie Jorgenson
Actor, Screenwriter, Voice Actor
Love the empowering perspective throughout! Great tips!
6 years ago
Paulina Lagudi
Director, Producer, Screenwriter
thank you!
6 years ago
Juhani Nurmi
Screenwriter
Thanks for this invaluable blog, Paulina Lagudi. With this uber-versatile info, you've truly weaponized and empowered all us Stage 32ers. This is a very sobering and painfully honest write-up, in the best and most educational way possible. I wish you and your fiancé the very best of success. Sounds to me like you've got your heads screwed on tight on your shoulders. 
6 years ago
Paulina Lagudi
Director, Producer, Screenwriter
Thank you so much. Love the feedback and hearing it's helpful. We have more power than given credit for. I plan to write more blog posts in this vein and around these topics for Stage 32 soon. 
6 years ago
Great insights. Thank you Paulina.
6 years ago
John Ellis
Screenwriter, Author, Assistant Director
Great post! Lots of invaluable info!
6 years ago
She'Ra Hagans
Musician, Actor, Screenwriter, Songwriter, Director, Dancer, Singer
Thank you for this valuable advice! 
6 years ago
Jean Buschmann
Content Creator, Editor, Screenwriter, Producer
Hey Paulina!  So good to see you empowering yourself and sharing the love and life lessons.  
6 years ago
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