I have been freelancing in the industry for a year now. It has been a tough go at times. The last major assignment I had was interning at a production company. It was unpaid and even though I live and die for film but toiling away endlessly at that job was soul crushing. I felt like an inconsequential grunt that had no impact on anything that occurred there. It was a great learning experience but paying my dues like this might not be for me. I have decided to make a decision. I need to grab life by the testes and just go for it. I have resolved to just start working on my own projects. No more PA work unless needed. I will learn through a baptism of fire of sorts. I work at a 9 to 5 now and that will subsidize everything I wanna do. I will be getting a short film done by the end of this year and I will be establishing myself as an actor even if it fucking kills me.