Why not try and help instead of how can I say this without offending, making "useful" suggestions that really are not all that applicable or helpful. Yes you are right in I should download this or that NLE, it sounds on the surface, at first blush a brilliant idea, and yes I had thought of this 100 years ago, I am not stupid, again NOT STUPID, my laptop might be, I have as you can guess a browser, and yes I have used it once or twice to go a verb called googling.. The problem is not really mine or anyone else, it is related to circumstance, let me try and explain again, circumstance is what you find yourself in, it is a factor of so many aspects, I am as a result of so many factors both within and outside of my control in a place I simply cannot get myself out of. Many of you drive on snow in winter, and I am sure there has been a time, through no fault of your own, you have needed a tow, let me understand this, you went off the road, and someone else, not you, a 3rd person, with the right tools winched your car back onto the road, you called for help and someone responded, so why are you entitled to this, you crashed, so by rights you should find the rope and haul the car yourself out of the ditch, with no access to any experts, or external help. That is what the community expects me to do, yes I had a crash, shit happens, I dealt with that, now I need help to be better, work is a way to "fix" things, self esteem issues, etc, not everyone has access to the latest or greatest technology. I have tried my very best, and I am pleading for help, but for what?? I am weeping in the wind.. So instead of tearing strips off me, berating me, stop and ask yourself, how you would react if everything you knew was taken away, you were no longer wanted, yes I have depression, bad thoughts, sorry I am of the human variety, I have emotions, dreams and needs, I love editing, all I know and been exposed to is TV news inserts, 90 seconds or less kind of editing, sorry I do not have media or show reels, local law prevents me from having copies, to have would be criminal and I am not that. That is a problem, sure, I accept that, and as a result, I am more than willing to start at the bottom again, as a junior whatever, as assistant, sure for me that is not even an issue, after all, 17 years in broadcasting, I am still regarded as a junior...Such is life. Logic tells me that there is at least one kind soul out there, of the 7 billion on this 3rd rock that has the compassion, to see past my pain, to past my lack of formal qualifications, that is willing and able to just at least talk to me, sometimes life is shitty, and we do not make the best decisions, I am guilty of that, and I live the result every day. Video editing is not a job, it is not something I chose lightly, I did it as I loved it, money be damned, I knew I was never going to be rich, that is not important, I miss it, I am exhausted from not having anything to edit, I have lost my way, thought maybe if I explained, but no, people punish me for not having Avid/Premiere, Pro-tools and 10 000 other aspects, sorry for that, I could not afford decent hardware to run such, and I do not know how to install cracked illegal software on my system. I made do with what I had, I am sorry if you hate me, I accept that, I have accepted that my career as tiny and pathetic it was, is over, who is going to hire part time, or even help a almost 40 year old part time TV news video editor from the arse end of Africa???? Do you know me, or my talents, how much is a human life? For me it is less than $2000, I do not have this, I have about $20....What a wicked waste, people waste that pissing out Starbucks coffee a year and for what???? Thanks Justine
Post-Production : I have a suggestion: How we helped an older member of the post-production community find her feet.. by Justine-Paula Robilliard
I have a suggestion: How we helped an older member of the post-production community find her feet..
Other topics in Post-Production:
Check out Trending Discussions
Register / Log In
How can I help?
I can make suggestions, as to how viable they are, only time will tell. It is akin to me telling the tow truck driver how to winch, not a good idea... I have this idea of how I see things, mostly idealistic and possibly insane, I am a dreamer, I would love so so much to spend a short time, a couple of weeks at t local TV station, that uses FCP X, make notes and ask questions, document my time there. Here where I freelance we have Broadcast Pix technical directing desk, what we call vision mixer, no one knows how to use it, apart from the very basic, I would love to know more, of course I am greedy, it is about damn time I earned decent cash. Look I do not have a massive budget, in fact zero budget, problem, not really, there is a way to do this... I leave it in the hands of those closer to the coal face to make better suggestions, I would so love to know and learn, sick and tired of being useless... 4K, LUTS, Logs, Epic, RAW, terms I have heard, mean nothing to me, I was a tv news video editor, professionally sued DVCPRO, that is where it ended..Surely there is a place in the sun, given not going to be easy...But I am worth it... Justine
I am not asking you how to edit so my question is in no way akin to you telling telling the tow truck driver how to winch. The tow truck driver pulls up next to you and your car and asks, "How can I help?" You do not tell him how to winch - you tell him how he can help. I have read what you have written. I fully understand the challenges you have. I am responding to your statement; "Why not try and help instead of how can I say this without offending, making "useful" suggestions that really are not all that applicable or helpful." So I am trying to help. I don't know how to help you. So I ask how can I help you. I do not want to make "useful" suggestions that really are not all that applicable or helpful - I want to help. How can I help?
How would you go about helping a friend in a situation like mine, ok I am not in the US, there is this invention from a couple of years ago, brothers called Orville and Wilber designed this thing, memory faulty here, think it is called a airplane, and they use things we call airports, one close to me, and one in the USA, there are a few there.... As all I know is tv news editing, surely there is someone that can endure me for a short time, as to paying that is a problem, I am trying to save for the flight, so far, my salary every month, is less than my expenses, and savings account is being depleted, this has been going on for 17 years, I am exhausted, sick and tired of being a junior after 17 years, it is unfair, but they have me over a barrel, take it or leave it, as I cannot find work anywhere else, believe me I have tried, my lack of skills is a problem. I referred to the tow truck in how to get my skills out of the ditch, how to get access to training, information, upskilling, that is beyond my budget and access, others I know get funding from the company, not me, as I am a freelancer. Company policy is not to pay for freelancer training. It is pointless sitting day after day staring at the laptop, if there is no work, what you do not use, you loose, I understood FCP X, not sure about now, it has been 2 months since I powered up the laptop, I shoved it in a drawer. I know that I could make a huge difference, all I need is to be confident in my skills, that is the biggest issue, is confidence, lack of makes me dangerous, and that is bad thing, working, doing projects, I gain confidence, muscle memory, look we all started somewhere, some times, the best people are found in the strangest places, take a risk...What is the worst that can happen, it cost a bit of money, the best, it saves a life.. Justine
I do not appreciate your condescending sarcasm, Justine. I am no longer interested in helping.
I did not mean it that way, I was trying to lighten the situation, I battle with aspects of language, granted it was not the best attempt. I am so sorry, I never intended to offend or belittle. I have Aspergers, or similar, and nuance of language I fail badly at. Justine
One of the most difficult things about the post industry is the ever changing technology, tools, and techniques. Justine, I totally understand where you are coming from. Just three years ago I was living and working in L.A., I lived a block from the ocean in Manhattan Beach, working projects as a promo Assistant Editor first, and later a freelance editor on national commercials. I now live in South Carolina (my wife had a job opportunity she couldn't pass up). Where there is ZERO professional post production industry. So how does an editor such as I, that comes from an area where everything is specialized (editors edit, gfx people make gfx, sound editors sound edit etc.) to an area where it's all made up of virtually one man bands that do all the work themselves? I've struggled out here immensely. I became so depressed on what I use to have, I had to seek therapy to work through it. I feel you sister, I have an aging workstation with very little plugins and other tools to work with. I had to re-invent my skillset, that much was clear. I have had to spend my time re-crafting my skills in areas that I use to delegate out to motion gfx artists, or assistant editors or writers. In order for me to become viable in my new market, I had to strengthen the areas that my weaknesses lie in. It's been HELL. I won't lie to you, I struggle with it EVERYDAY! But I can honestly tell you that I've never been better at working with After Effects than ever before because of it. While i'm no master at motion graphics now, I certainly can do enough, and continue my evolution as an editor and professional. I sit in front of my computer and ache for something meaningful to edit. Well, i'm sick of feeling that way, so I recently decided to stop waiting for someone else to bring me something to edit and I just started writing my own shorts so I can go out and film it myself (I HATE PRODUCTION!!), just so I can edit something. I feel your pain 100%. But we can do things to work around that pain. It's never going to be easy, and I still have my bad days too. But a new sun rises each day and I take it day by day. I don't force it if I'm not feeling it. But when I do, I dive right in and don't look back. I hope you find what you are looking for and that inner peace that I too, search for.