Steven Garcia

Where do i begin. I guess we can start off with not remembering anything as a kid, I don't remember being a baby I just remember getting up from the stairs as if I was just there. Some part me feels as if I wasn't supposed to be here as if I just jumped inside someone's body and got to live with their bullshit. When i was 10 I had Hodgkin's lymphoma stage 4. Lot of night sweats and pain my mom was very supportive. I remember thinking how much life sucked. A year and 6 months of chemo and radiation and I got pushed back into middle school. Bunch of crap if you ask me. The system itself is crap. I am not a negative person by any means but I did learn a lot from suffering. I was bullied and i wore my shirt backwards everyday to school. I still have the scar from the port but i mean most people say scars fade. Anyways lets fast forward because I don't want to bore you. I started doing stand up at 18 after I tried some acid when i was 17. It was a bizarre experience and I remember time and everything just collapsing, It was like nothing mattered yet everything is still. I remember my dad threatening me with miltary school. I have a weird life story so I guess you can say I been lucky a lot. I have 2 duis and I worked at a sex shop with an ankle monitor on. Everything changed for me when I had my son though. I realized that I am responsible to navigate this disaster we can life. I cant lie sometimes i feel as if nothing really matters and its all just a ride at least that's what bill hicks said. I started to have a fascination with filming and editing although i never could fit in with anyone. I tried to make some comedian friends but I always got a sense of faking. These guys would have it all together once they hit the stage but when they got off the stage they were miserable. I find it hard to connect with people who always put on a show. For once in my life I just want someone to say hello im fucked in the head but you want to be friends? I wish people were different but then again I wish I was different. Somehow someway I hope i find my way. Currently trying to get a film crew together and submit to a film festival as one of my goals. If your still reading this im sorry and apologize it could have gotten way more fucked i promise you.... I left out a lot for your sanity not mine. Feel free to talk to me or just love yourself and I appreciate you as a person. :)